#64 - Time

Time,
once past and over we can never retrieve it back.
therefore, we need to cherish every single moment that we have.
who knows that the very next day is end of world, or maybe I got an accident and just go off.
none can actually predict the next; especially myself.
I don't know what's gonna happen next, what my future life will be, my career, my family, my friends and my relationship.

for the past few weeks, I just got totally no time for everything. I tried to squeeze out as much time as possible, but still, not enough. just finish one exam, hrm. thou, it's kinda common sense thing. but still I think I'm gonna flunk it. they seriously play with words. I hate words. upcoming exam
on tuesday, organization behaviors l. even I attend all lesson, but still I don't even understand what the lecturer teaching about. worst thing Off all, I totally got no time to study at all due to working like a dog at work.

working. everyday work like dog. unlucky me, have to plan the upcoming June holidays activities. the proposal I've send have two got chosen. so I have to get more information about their activities, book for timing, pricing etc. there's too much to look out for. the worst part is that one of the activities in charge person seriously pissing me off. no reply email, no updates, no pick up call. wtf la. if you don't wan the business, just jolly well tell me, don't waste my time and so that I won't get pressure from the upper level, pushing me for details.
last two weeks, we got a new full timer, supposedly she should ease our work load, but till now, I still work like a dog. and she, likeaboss.

Planning,
a disasters to me. seriously. I HATE to plan. and this time round, for my upcoming birthday.
as the past years, never did I planned for my birthday. I would rather, don't celebrate. but kind enough, I have my girls JKP and colleague LAMP sweet enough to help me celebrate my 21st birthday.
the reason I don't want to plan is that it's costly, and I have to think for the majority. not as if what I want and we just go for it. I have to put in much consideration for others as well. not that if I'm the one celebrating birthday and I hack care what others are facing. that will be selfish and inconsiderate isn't it? therefore, planning is a disaster to me. sometimes, I just wanna go just for a dinner and that's it. but think of BFFs that can fork out the time to celebrate my birthday together, I'm touched. but how the hell I can do it with flawless? perfection is what I look out for in planning, if things doesn't goes perfect. I rather not to celebrate. therefore, I cannot be a planner. worst part of planning, I have to look into everyone's budgets and time and get a hell fun out of it and suits everyone taste. but, IT'S HARD OKAY! not as easy as thought. I feel like giving up, but I'm hanging there cos I appreciate and I wanted to enjoy with everyone else. I'm still waiting for replies and suggestion. and days is coming nearer. I wish I hope I can do it well.

Home,
is just a place that I Have and need to be happy at all times. Because I just don't want any member at home to worry for me. especially mummy. I just want her to feel that I'm always that happy girl without much troubles. but who know deep inside, I'm struggling that much. that day, thanks to Jasmine and Vijay to help me buy that microwave that my mummy keep pestering me for. thanks for the help of sending me back just for me to get home with that heavy microwave in easier way. mummy is super happy upon seeing that microwave, give a pat on head to myself (: now, I have a new member at home, Alyssa. and all I can say, she is a bloody irritating and noisy baby! cry and cry and cry! causing me with not enough sleep EVERYDAY! seriously, life sucks to me whenever sleep is not enough. and this will carry on for quite a long period. by then the day come, my dark ring will be similar to a panda ._.

thanks for all the rants and such a long post. now all I need much is to sleep. so good nights everyone ! may I have good dreams even for a few hours! ^^
let's pray for a better tomorrow!

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